The Hoildays.. HA!

Talky Post!


So, two days after Christmas and damn it takes so much to prepare for it that once it's over you look around and think damn how the hell did that happen? The answer being I became my mom's Elf which meant I helped pick up the extra work so she could focus on what she needed to get done which is totally fine and I was very willing to help out but with certain things she wants it to be done her way and okay I understand that because everyone likes to do things their own way. Expect when the way I found to do it is much faster and takes have the amount of time it makes me a little angry that she strongly raises her voice at me to do it her way. For example this morning, we were taking down the Christmas Decorations so I got the empty boxes and started placing stuff in categories such as, living room, bathroom, kitchen etc. Well, wanted to sort it herself and ended up getting snippy with me when she told me to bring in stuff thats on the formal dining room table into the living room and I answered with "That's what I'm doing" she took it as attitude when I was just telling her what I was doing. She later said she was sorry. I think we have just spent TOO MUCH TIME together lately tomorrow I'm gonna go hang out with a friend for the day just to give her that space. I also think she's sad about having to go back to school (she's a teacher) I mean aren't we all ;)

Letting My Guard Down

FAIR WARNING TALKY POST!


In my personality I think I have two sides one being the silly, funny, energetic side of myself that all my friends and family see the typical everyday self. Then the other being the side that stores all feelings, emotions, memories which is way most of my sadness in life lives. It's funny the other day I was talking to my closest friend "S" who has really stepped up in the past few years of being friends because I often turned to her when I didn't have anyone else. Well, we were talking about star signs her's being Gemini and mine being a Sagittarius and what traits we think co inside with who we are and mine is known two have two personalities the crazy loud one and the more emotional deeper one.
I don't know what it is but their is something in me that I hate showing any type of emotions if they not the happier ones. I guess in my head it reads it as being weak which I know it isn't at all because someone being brave enough to share their most deepest feelings and emotions is way more stronger than someone who shoves them way down and not letting them see the light of day. I've said this before but I can get "stuck" in my sadness it tends to linger around which is where I'm at right now. The reason is in the last two post's I have made on here and rather not address it directly but I guess it's the feeling of being so close with someone but wanting completely different lives. This friend wants the typical American Dream; Get Married, Buy a house, Have kids etc basically she wants a life of a housewife now I'm not discrediting the work of a housewife because I honestly think they are the hardest working people in the world sometimes because having to keep up with cooking, cleaning, kids, appointments, and still trying to have a romantic relationship with their significant other. (Major Props Given!) I have seen this life first hand with my sister and how her family dynamic works. Her husband is the breadwinner of the family and she is a stay at home mother so she does all of those chores I have spoken above in the last sentence. All though, the life I want to lead is a bit of a crazy one my dream job is to be a writer for Rolling Stone magazine or if I get lucky to continue on with this blog and revamp it into a primary music related blog because that's mixing my two loves in life writing and music. Now I know that life leads a huge amount of travel, busier than expected daily schedule, and a lot of networking with the "right" people. The best description I can give is the film Almost Famous directed by Cameron Crow I would kill to be his character getting to go on tour with a band and reporting and interviewing them about their lives and the creative processes. Also though I see myself as a version of the character Penny Lane because of that free spirit vibe, the loving heart that drives her to watch out for the other girls on tour as well, and of course wanting to be as close as possible to the men and women who create the music that makes her blood flow through her veins. (Side note: I wrote something about describing why I relate so much to the film Almost Famous let me know if you guys want me to post it on here!). What is frustrating is I also want what is the American Dream as well but different and filled with blending both work and pleasure which I laugh at because everyone swears I'll marry a musician one day and I have to agree because I feel like I could truly be myself with another creative soul. Honestly, I felt like I just needed to vent and let out everything I have been thinking about to a place where I know I won't get judged.

Love, Tay

So Confused...

FAIR WARNING TALKY POST!


Okay, so in my last post I spoke about doubting that I was going to get a happy birthday from a certain friend but at 11:09 pm she sent me a message basically saying happy birthday now that I'm 21 I can go to Vegas and actually get into clubs and drink and do vegas the right way and of course go see Thunder From Down Under which I sorta laughed at because when we went together we got a lot of attention from a few members of the show in passing ;) plus we were only 17 at the time so we felt like some real hot shit you know? Well, I responded to her saying not right now and money is tight which it is also the fact that I didn't want to go see them without her because we always said it would be "our" thing. Then she goes; "why not? why is money tight? why can't you?" lastly I said "it's not like I won't ever get to see them just not now that's all" An the convo stopped there...
     What hurts is the fact that she either doesn't seem too  understand that it's something I've always wanted to do with her. Also it may date back to my graduation present which happened to be going to Vegas and seeing Aerosmith live which was suppose to happen but she couldn't pay for her plane ticket :( I do think while she was supportive and was a really good spot about the whole thing and let me blab all about it too her. I couldn't say the same if the roles we're switched cause I'd be soooooo jealous!
I don't know honestly all I wish is we can get back to our silly selves and how we use to be I feel so out of the loop with her life she use to tell me everything and I did the same but now it's just so awkward... This whole situation is something that's caused a lot of issues with me emotionally because I desperately want that best friend-friendship we had. It sucks drifting apart from somebody who meant so much to you. Maybe one day we will be like we use too but a lot of stuff would need to change and I don't have much hope for that happening because it's been 2 almost 3 years since I felt so far away from her like we just disconnected.

Love, Tay

My Birthday 12/12/16

FAIR WARNING TALKY POST!

Well, I'm officially 21 years old it feels very nice because I do like my life at the moment everything seems to be going really great which I'm thankful for. I got a handful of super sweet birthday messages which I loved but sadly, didn't get one from a friend who we've drifted apart a lot this past year and it's hard because we always said we'd spend our birthdays together. I mean for her's I sent her this long thoughtful message and I can't even get a "happy birthday" from her is just beyond heartbreaking because of all the history we have between us. I guess there's still 11 hours of my birthday so I possibly could still get some kind of gesture showing she cares a tiny bit but I highly doubt I'm going to get it. Other than that my days going pretty well I have this confidence within that I feel really sexy for some odd reason like I'm pretty sure I've been cat-walking it all around campus
(I'm doing finals at the moment). Another cool thing is we had a small snow shower last week in which caused two days off from school for my mom (she's a teacher) we got the house all pretty for Christmas and had a nice walk in the snow all though on the way back we kept getting just straight ice coming down into our faces which wasn't nice but once we got home where it was all nice and warm I decided it was a good day. Actually the news says we are suppose to get another round of winter weather so I'm prepared but the last time I doubted we would get anything. I sure was soooo wrong! Tonight my parents are taking me out to dinner which is sweet but I just wanted to do that will friends not my parents you know? Oh well, I'll live hopefully we will go early enough nobody I'd know is there because spending your 21st with your parents is beyond lame! (Fingers Crossed)

Lenny Kravitz- The Chamber

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAHlQ77lm10

PLEASE WATCH THIS VIDEO! WARNING: Nudity

You know how sometimes you end up in a downward spiral on Youtube? Well, that is what happened to me a clip from his Oprah Master class episode popped up so I just decided to see if he put out any new music because I like his song Fly Away and his rendition of American Women is one of my all time favorites. I came across this particular song "The Chamber" so I clicked and Wow! First of all I love the whole idea for the video basically the danger of the act of play also wanting what you know you shouldn't have. It's so tempting yet in the back of your head you know you shouldn't engage but something inside yea just can't say no. The beginning is classical sound using a string section then BOOM you hear the gun shot. Which at first listen made me jump a bit, then this real groove oriented guitar comes in mixing with a steady beat of drums and a bass line that would make Prince (RIP) so proud and probably smiling down on him from heaven above. As a fan of Rock music I lately always hear that "Rock Is Dead" and honestly it may be but this is reinventing the genre of "Rock" music because I know this must have been a club hit as well because people can dance to it! With the EDM (Electric Dance Music) being so big nowadays, this is a great way for possible rock artists to go the EDM route. I hate to say it because I totally get a Disco vibe as well from this song very Studio 54 sounding I can see the drinks, lights, shiny clothing etc ;) Honestly it is a cool song so check it out

Love, Tay

School's Been Insane

FYI- Ranting Away!

I'm so sorry to all who read this blog I've been swapped with classes since they started because I'm taking four classes which isn't a large load but with the way I like to work it is. It's hard on Monday's and Wednesday's because I have two classes but back to back so I don't really have time to eat lunch so basically I live on Granola Bars on those days and with Tuesday's and Thursday's I bring snacks to campus to get me through the day. Overall classes are going well I'm taking general psych, creative writing fiction, film and society, and an intro to sociology I really enjoy them all. Also I really like my creative writing professor because I watched the Ted Talk she did and it was so inspiring it drove me to finish my short story that's due soon. Her talk was about being a misfit in life and I really related to that feeling of not really knowing where I was meant to be she also spoke about the difficult parts of her life and it made me realize that I've always liked to end my stories with a pretty little bow meaning I'd wouldn't ever really talk to much about the bad parts of my life story but I took the plunge and wrote about a time where a guy that I was sort of seeing wasn't the man I deserve in life because he'd push me or grab me like I was just some kind of old doll I worked that into the story and I let one of my really close friends "S" read through it and she was amazed by how well I wrote that part and amazed that it really happened to me (it was the first time telling her). It felt good to write it out because I know now my issues with unwanted touching stems from the issues I had with him. Writing is really a therapeutic process for me it's what I do if I'm mad, sad, frustrated, happy, lonely etc. I hope to do more posts soon!

Love, Tay  

ANDY BLACK- THEY DON'T NEED TO UNDERSTAND!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LICMmzOqLoE

First of all yes I know this is his solo stuff aside from his main band Black Veil Brides a lot of people don't tend to like a singer's solo stuff when he's gained so much fame from his main band but I think he's one of the exceptions because I think his solo stuff really showcases what he can do with his voice. I started listening to him way back in 8th grade or it was freshman year I can't remember but my best friend at the time who we will call her "K" was on this scream o/metal bands kick for a good few months. I use to go over to her house early in the morning and we'd get ready for school together blasting music and doing our hair and make up so after awhile of hearing this new type of music I finally asked her who it was and to my surprise she said Black Veil Brides back in their early days these guys looked so scary but also really intriguing at the same time so I downloaded all of the songs "K" had and started listening to them non-stop and looking for interviews of Andy just becoming really curious to who this man is. So about a year or so I was going through my I tunes account looking through old songs when I came across andy so I looked him up to see if he was still making music or if he'd gone on to do something else because I remembered him saying something that he loved to make art (regardless of music). I found his solo stuff and this particular song I was very happy with what I had found. As for the video it opens to Andy walking up to one of those old metal microphones with slicked back hair, no eye make up, and only his nose/lip rings as you can see from the photo above. I loved the black and white throwback in my eyes it creates such a raw image meaning that symbolically usually having to do with the dark and light side of somebodies aura/personality. Also loved singing the old footage of him singing in his room when he was younger I find it cool to see how far someone can come in life. Another thing I liked a lot were the small moments where he smiled it may sound dumb but knowing the kind of music and kind of image he had with Black Veil Brides it had that metal look which is tough, angry, and reckless abandonment. I thought it was nice to see his softer side coming through in his art. The message of the song is to be yourself and embrace the individually in each and every one of us and match it with a "I don't give a fuck attitude" which is something I think more of us have to remember. It's inspirational a quality that a lot of his music has he really cares about his fans. If you haven't heard this song ever check it out because it's great!!!

Love, Tay

Song Review- Cold Hearted by Paula Abdul

Now I love almost everything about the 80's from the music, fashion, movies, etc so once I found this song I fell in love because it's seriously so badass! It's nice to see a woman stand up for herself in talking about unfair relationships. I first heard about this song while actually watching a interview of John Stamos joking about the song was about him. (they dated each other) sadly tho I don't know if it's true about him being unfaithful to Paula but it sure did make one hell of a hit in the year 89'. Plus the video was so amazing! the dancers were so great and created so many interesting new formations and movements it really did have it's own style of dance. I couldn't believe how fast some of those dancers including Paula herself were dancing or climbing on those boxes that were stacked on top of each other it had such clean lines through out the whole video I'm not surprised though it did will many awards at the VMA's that year. I can totally relate to the lyrics of liking a guy who let's just say has a "wandering eye" because their is always that thin line of unhealthily jealously and it creates so many problems in such a small amount of time. All though I understand when there's just one guy that everyone knows is no good at all but there's something inviting about him that you just don't care if you get hurt in the end.  Yes, there was a time I was I guess you can say the "other women" type of deal all though not really because said guy who I'll call "T" just broken up with his longtime girlfriend and who I happened to be in class with also with him as well and we'd use to flirt all the time because first of all he was just fun to be around with plus it use to drive the longtime girlfriend crazy and I liked getting a little bit of revenge because she was horrible to me would make fun of how I looked, what I wore, the way I spoke (I have a bit of a stuttering issue) just really made me feel so low so of course I liked throwing it in her face by talking to her ex. One time I remember is we were watching a movie in this class and once the lights turned off it got really dark especially if it was a cloudy grey kind of day outside. The way we sat we we're all the way in the back rows of desks closet to the right side of the wall and he'd rest his hand on my knee then slide it up to my thigh and I'd run my fingers through his hair above his neck you know teenagers shenanigans;) and it drove her mad but I knew I wasn't ever gonna date "T" or have a actually relationship with him because in Paula Abdul's words "He is a cold hearted snake!" so now whenever I hear this song I think of him and just shake my head because when are men ever gonna learn women ALWAYS have the last laugh in the end!

Love, Tay

Late Night Thoughts...

New Artist Review- Frankie Ballard

I came across Frankie's music by actually flipping through channels on tv. As I was going through them I find CMT which is country music I find that genre of music to be really calming so I often turn it on when I'm doing chores around the house. Well Frankie's video for a song called Sunshine and Whiskey came on and it made me stop in my tracks and just watch and listen. After the video ended I really liked the song so I went to do some research and find out that was born in Michigan but moved to Nashville to pursue a career in music after hr graduated college where he was playing college baseball. I knew his music was special when his upbeat songs make me want to get up and dance whiling singing along to ever word. Yet as soon as you listen to one of his ballads the emotion hits every nerve in your body. So here's my top 5 fave songs go listen :)

5. Sunshine and Whiskey-
At first listen you hear this steady beat of drums with a nice acoustic guitar floating over it. The lyrics read as if you're falling in love with a summer fling someone who you find so interesting that you get tunnel vision and can only really focus on that one person. A great line in the song goes" I was driving south with the top drop down, her hair in the wind, Tom Petty playing loud." It spoke too me cause it's it reminded me of going on a road trip and somehow they're was a Tom Petty song playing in the background while I looked outside the window. Plus there is also a killer guitar solo he does which gave the song some edge.
4. Young and Crazy-
A lot of Frankie's music is very guitar driven because he is firstly a guitar player it's what his music thrives on the real meat of most of his tracks. This song tells a story that everyone should live life to it's fullest. Make crazy memories that will make for a great story later in life. It's a real positive vibe!
3. I'm Thinking Country-
First of all the banjo actually really makes this song because it fits so perfectly to what Frankie is talking about which is getting away from the city and go out on up land and have a bon-fire with friends and live it up! Everyone can understand needing to get away from day to day life even if you can't escape in real life this song is a nice filler for that feeling. I also get major summer vibes from this track I can imagine myself sitting by the river listening to that on loudest setting of the speakers and rocking out.
2. It All Started With A Beer-
UGH!!! I swear this one song is just amazing! It's tender yet reflective, as well as romantic and a bit sad which always seems to produce the best ballads from an recording artist. This song greatly paints a picture of just one moment in time where your with someone special just the two of you enjoying each others company and being love wether it be from the buzz or just staring into each others eyes all night it's so sweet. Oh My God the slide guitar lifts this song to newer heights it sets such a unique tone to the song it's sexy but a soft sound it pairs wonderfully with Frankie's voice on the track.

1. Cigarette- the guitar comes in plucking a few notes then Frankie's voice comes in talking about wanting to get the attention of a women so bad that everything she does just entices him further. It's a very sexy sounding song it's a mix of an 80's song with the synth keyboards mixing with 70's southern rock tendencies.

Go Check Frankie!!

Love, Tay

You've Changed

FYI- Talky Post

I think the phase "You've Changed" is a double edged sword meaning it's used as a negative attack on somebody who isn't the "same" person you may have liked once before. It's almost always said in a cold way as if the person they are saying this too is almost dead to them. Sadly, I have said this phase a few times before and now I look on it realizing how wrong I was for saying that because I didn't understand the deeper emotional meaning of those words also how I felt during the time I said it. As children we group each other into category's based on how similar we are to each other and that's how we start to make friends and I can say that's how I looked for friends growing up and I take friendships very seriously as I'm sure anyone who reads my blog can tell and about two years ago I went through a very tough time in my life I graduated high school and had an amazing summer spent with friends and family pretty much just loving life. Well, summer ended as it does and all my friends were heading off to college and I had no idea of what I wanted to do with my life or if I even wanted to attempt going to college because I struggled so much with not only the work but feeling so run down to the point where I just wanted to be done that I hated learning at that moment. When I really I do like learning I have such a strong passion for history, culture, and art that anything in those subjects I'm drawn too. It's like once I realize I like learning about a certain subject I really jump into it as if I obsess about it and won't stop till I know everything about that thing, person, etc. Once I was pushed to take the leap and start taking classes at a community college that I finally realized I could take classes and get the grades that I always wanted A's to be honest it restored my faith in that I am smart but in a creative way and not much in the logical way which is just fine because I finally think I know a career path I'd like to go down and that is to be a writer for a music magazine or a music historian because I'd be doing something I truly love yes it's a dream job but it's something I really want so I'm going to work my ass over to get there! Knowing that I changed in as little as a term of college I finally started to see how the words I spoke to some of my closest friends when they were going off to university was said out of a place of hurt and feeling abandoned because I felt left behind because I didn't know what I wanted too do with my life. Some of the abandoned feelings stemmed from going to speaking to my friends everyday sometimes all day to radio silence for weeks on end and too me it was like they didn't care about me anymore when actually they were just busy with classes, homework, papers, work, other activities, new friends, and new significant others. Once I began filling my time with classes, homework, papers, new friends, failed romantic conquests :/ I knew the feeling of not having enough time to eat some days let alone text a friend back or have a phone chat with them (Boy do I miss talking to people on the phone for hours!) it finally registered in my head what it was like for them on their side. The hardest part is knowing way to go in a friendship that has lasted 8 years (D) is how to start a new chapter in our friendship now that I have changed/grown up as well as she has I think I need to start making an effort to keep in contact because I've left it be for awhile when I shouldn't have. Then other closest friend (B) is leaving in three days to study aboard program for 3 months I'm gonna miss her so much but I'm so excited for her as well so I think I'll just be so excited for her to come home to tell me all about it!! So school starts for me on the 26th of this month and I'm excited to just jump in and see what happens :)

Love, Tay

To Have A Bad Day

FYI- Talky Post

Yesterday, I had a bad day now nothing happened to create a bad day all though I felt really down. I'm a very emotional person therefore I feel lots of emotions at one time which I have always said it's both a blessing and a curse because of that it's a blessing because I think I can relate to lots of different kinds of people I've never really liked what was considered "normal" its the people who are different that have the best stories too tell and you can always learn something from them wether you know it or not. There we're many reasons as to why I was having a bad day one was how I looked. Now I wasn't going anywhere that day it was just a chilled out day at home so usually I throw my hair up into a high pony tail and don't have any make up on. Well I must have tried putting my hair up at least 10 times and couldn't get it how I wanted it.. then while looking the mirror I just kept seeing my acne scars and I was breaking out and I had some new spots and for some reason I just couldn't get past it so I felt ugly. I rarely feel ugly that kind of ugliness where all you want is to curl up and have no one see you but I did which is dangerous for me because my mind will make problems out of nothing so the problem that arose was that I use filters on my Instagram or Snapchat pics not because I like how they look and change my features a bit but because I need to cover up how I really look when my face is bare and I don't have my hair to hid behind. It's a very self-destructive way of thinking and it sort of ate me up inside and really made me feel low. The point to the story is that it's perfectly okay to have bad days and to sit in a bad mood especially if that's how you work out of that kind of headspace the best. I hate it when there's that one friend in you're group of friends who is always super happy/positive who doesn't understand that not everyone is like them and they need to deal with how they know best. Don't get me wrong if I wanted to be cheered up or talk through something I could of texted my closest friend "S" who I know is always there for me to help me but I just wanted to stay in that sadness and the next day I woke up in a much happier mood and I was just fine sometimes we just need to have a bad day....

Love, Tay

Greatest Hits tv show

Recently I have came across a new tv show called Greatest Hits its basically American Idol without the "everyday people turned superstar" it's already established musical acts of many different genres singing their own songs with current acts as well. I tried it out because I was an avid Idol watcher and I'm missing it a lot so why not give this show a go. My reaction is that while I like it it reminds me of those music award shows such as the VMA's or Billboard Awards back on in the day when people were open to listening to lots of different styles of music and also where the collaborative process was more unique than say putting together two people that sound alike or have very similar styles. Some of my very favorite collaborations such as Tina Turner singing Brown Sugar with the Rolling Stones or more recently Megan Tranior feat John Legend "Like I'm Gonna Lose You" now those two are on two total different sides of the industry came together to make a really good solid song. I'm going to pick my top 5 favorite performances from the show so go check this out and give the show a try :)


1. Adam Lambert-George Michael Tribute https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nZARuUJ937U
He sang the song "Faith" which is one of Michael's biggest selling singles to date. There's something to effortless to the way Adam can deliver a song almost better than the person who originally sang it.

2. Rick Springfield- Jessie's Girl https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIXMXqStFxs
This is such a feel good song that I swear it just makes everyone get up and dance! It's nice too see that he still sounds as good as he did on the record that's how to do when the song is over 35 years old. There is a reason why it has hold up all these years because it's just a fun song to listen too.

3. Kelsea Ballerini- Man! I feel like a woman/This Love/Baby One Time https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FmAOz5yExSY
I enjoyed this because to go from country to pop is hard to do but she did it so easily with just a few note changes it shows she really knows how to use her voice instead of her voice using her.

4. Fifth Harmony- Destiny's Child Tribute
I was so impressed with them doing this tribute! They put so much soul and attitude into this performance they did Destiny's Child proud for sure they brought down the house! Go Girl Power ;)

5. Little Big Town- Fallin' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhcHT3GM_6c
Country Performers turned R&B is so freaking cool to watch because of the amount of runs in this song makes it very difficult to sing but damn! they killed it! all of them sounded so good!

Space Never Fills The Void

FYI- Talky Post


Recently I put a status on fb that said "Look back on the past as not how much you miss how it use to be but look at how far you have came." That is something I'm trying to live by because I often get stuck in the past because memories have a very special place in my heart it's where some of the best stories are told, where I've laughed the hardest, or where I thought life couldn't get any better than it was in that very moment. I guess I'm a very reflective person but with being an emotional person it's not always a good thing to think about the past. Sadly I've been hurt in the past especially with friendships as anyone who reads my blog knows but having somebody who was my best friend (I don't say that word lightly) someone who I would have done anything for to leave me for a life that she's always wanted. Meaning living with a boyfriend who makes her very happy so she has him and the bunch of new friends she has made in her town 600 miles away it's gotten to the point where we just wish each other a happy birthday to go from that and thinking about how we'd talk all day everyday it's sad but that's how adult life goes people get caught up in day to day life and sometimes forget the people that they once use to care very much about. I still hope sometimes she thinks of me when something reminds her of me. Also my next closet friend is going away for 3 months on a student aboard program and doesn't come back till late December and I'm gonna miss her so much but I'm trying not to show it too much because her best friend isn't being the most supportive about the trip so I don't want to bum her out with whatever I'm feeling about her being gone. It's just that this one friend "B" has always been there for me when no one else was especially with me drifting apart from my own best friend she has been always very supportive yet with her being gone I know how alone I really will be I have a few friends that I know I can hang with and talk too but you know when you just want to have those talks where someone can be so honest and say anything that's what I'm gonna miss because it's not that easy to have that level of trust with just anybody... Although I know I'll be just fine sometimes I just get stuck in my sadness and can't get myself out of the frame of mind and my friends are the ones who get me out of those moods so this will be a test with myself to see if I can hold myself together and I do have faith plus I know I'll always have my love of music there for me!

Love, Tay

Dancing Is A Way Of Life

A funny realization I've had is some of the best times in my life are when I'm dancing which I think is a positive way to go through life. Of course as a child I took dance classes one of those reason's is because I was that annoying little sister that wanted to do everything her big sister did so since she was on her high school's dance team I wanted to take dance classes. I laugh now remember me at age 7 doing leaps across this huge dance studio having so much fun because at that time in my life I was just a kid having fun I didn't have much responsibility's so I didn't know what stress was. My mom still has pictures from my first dance recital and honestly I look like a drag queen because I had so much make up on my face it wasn't a great look at all! all though I did love what I was doing but I only got to complete two recitals because I had a freak knee injury and had two wear a boot for 5 months then once I got it off I didn't ever go back to it. The next experience I had with dance when I entered middle school because getting to experience my first "school dance" which I was so nervous for that my bestie and me at the time practiced "Dancing" at her house trying to dance like the girls in the music videos I still giggle at us trying to roll our hips like opposite HAHA! Well much to our delight it wasn't as serious as we think because it was just a bunch of kids dancing around in a gym. All though one wonderful memory I have is my first slow dance with a guy it was 8th grade so I was 14 and it was with a boy who we will call "C" it's the same guy who I have talked about a little on here before. He asked me to "Go to the dance with him" I was so excited that I dressed up all cute and wear boots that had a heel so I'd be a little taller because he was at least 6'2. The time came for a show dance so couples started to pair off and he took my hand and laced them around his neck and he put his hands on my waist and we started swaying back and fourth and it felt like everything was in slow motion because I was so happy in that moment. We danced until the last notes of the song which was Lonely by Akon it was such a sweet moment I'll always remember. Of course going from middle school dances to high school dances is so different because at least in my school grades 6th-8th we all were friends so it was very easy and natural for us all to hang out but in high school you realize wow I'm a freshman and there's 3 other grades of way more mature people it's scary for sure! The image too give everyone is remember Christina Aguilera music video for the song "Dirty" got that picture? that's what a high school dance is!!! All though it was just a bunch of people grinding on each other it was fun because it felt a little dangerous to be dancing this close to the opposite sex right ;) Another place where dancing is gladly appreciated is at concerts! I have such funny, crazy, and silly memories of me and friends dancing and jumping around because we were so excited to be there seeing this artist or band. Plus watching my mom fan-girl over Steven Tyler when we went to go to Vegas to see them as my graduation present she went from a women in her 50's too an 18 year old girl who was getting to see her favorite band when she was in high school hahaha! Somehow dancing has always came with great memories or produced such fun times for me maybe that's another reason why I love music and think that being in the moment is the best thing somebody can do just take it all in sort of thing. So dancing took me a variable life lesson that I hold close too my heart now.

Love, Tay     

What You Don’t Know

Write about a secret you’ve kept from someone else or how you feel when you know someone is keeping a secret from you.


Okay, this is an interesting deal because we all know secrets can go both ways meaning you could be keeping a secret from somebody or someone could be keeping the secret from you anyways it's tough either way because most of the time secrets don't end well for most people. A secret I have kept was that I started chatting with a guy I knew one of my friends liked a lot. Of course I knew it was wrong because this friend of mine was a very close friend who was there for me when nobody else was but on the other had she never really had a chance with this guy because they were so completely different from each other he just didn't have romantic feelings for her. Trust me if he would have been like "hey I like you're friend" I would have totally backed off cause hello girl-code! The issue was he told my friend that he didn't like her in that sort of way and then she started to over-obsess about him she couldn't take the rejection which I do understand because being rejected from anybody really sucks but to then be rejected by one of the cutest guys in school is some major embarrassment. That's the reason why I kept the secret from her that I was still speaking to him after the whole her confessing her feelings to him didn't go well I didn't want it to look like I didn't care at all because I did it's just that I was also his friend as well so really I was caught in between a rock and a hard place. It's crazy to think now that me and this "friend" don't even talk anymore the last time I did was the week of finals before summer my junior year of high school. Why we aren't friends is because no matter what happened whenever there was an issue in her life she always would blame me for being said problem first of all that's just beyond stupid because she is the one who makes the choices in her life so why the was she blaming me?

Prompted Writing-The Professor: Write about a teacher that has influenced you.

I've had my fair share of unique teachers/professors in my education process but one of my all time favorites was a guy named Mr. Currier who taught a class called Theory Of Knowledge TOK for short it could be described as a philosophy course because we talked a lot about different ways of thinking, how social norms are affected by different kinds of culture, and why people react the way they do. The reason why I took this class was because I was told by an upperclassmen that the class was very interesting and fun to be a part of which is something I looked for while looking for electives to take. It was an elective for a whole year instead of just an semester which was something I liked because I was starting to run out of elective options! As a student I'm always a bit nervous walking into a new class but for some strange reason that nervous energy just wasn't there I knew I was going to have a lot of fun. The course was largely based on class discussions which usually scared the crap out of me because growing up I had a speech issue which I had a stuttering problem so being put on the spot in class really scared me because I didn't want people to make fun of me for my stutter but actually by knowing that there would be a discussion every day of class having the practice of speaking to a class really helped my confidence. I laugh at some of the strange discussions we had one being Is The World Round Or Square? of course everyone was like what are you on Mr. Currier the world is round duh! Then he brought up that do we just all think the world is round because that's what people have always told us or do we believe it because it's really true? He always had amazing courter points to make us the students think oh wait he does have a point. Another discussion I remember very well is one where he wrote two words up on the white board them being Naked vs Nude and we had to come up with ways of how they are different from each other and words to place under them ex. Naked Juice: A type of juice that is all natural. It made for a very inspiring discussion because everyone who was speaking would be taking aback by what someone else had said or was surprised by someone's way of thinking. I can remember always leaving that class knowing I had learned something which in a class in high school is hard to come by especially when its almost summer or when it's your senior year and you can see the finish line! haha
I know that this class had such a huge impact on the ways of how I think, the way I speak, and also how I learn best which has made me a better person because by having been taught so many amazing lessons on how somebody should go through life it changed me for the better!
So I thank Mr. Currier for being one of the helpful teachers I've ever had!

Love, Tay

Song Review- Unsteady by X ambassadors

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0lw3qylVfY

I have been really into this song lately it's on repeat a lot because I connect to it in a very personal way. First time hearing this I was in the car with my mom and we had just gotten into an argument and I was at the point of trying my hardest to hold back tears. For some reason I hate with a passion letting people see me cry it's probably because I don't really like to show how vulnerable I am. Most of the time it's just so much easier to put on a happy face and act like nothing is wrong when actually it's probably the time where I need somebody the most. Honestly the people who have seen me cry and no I'm not talking just a few tears I'm talking like heavy sobbing when your crying so hard you can't seem to catch your breath those people who have seen that know me so much more on a way deeper level than I'd like anyone to know. As I was listening to this song the opening few notes hit you straight in the heart that falsetto that I often talk so much about in these music posts because it's element of the human voice I like so much but this was a different kind of falsetto than just trying to hit high notes or be a show off with you're voice. This kind was almost above a whisper as if he was gasping for air. As the song goes on there is this line in it says "I'm a little unsteady mama come here approach and appear daddy I'm alone cause this house don't feel like a home" hearing this it put the way I'm feeling at the moment into words because it's coming to the end of the summer and I need to start picking my classes for Fall Term and look for a part time job as well basically I can tell my parents want me to (puts fingers in quotations) Get my life together and move out. Yup I'm the sorry excuse for a human at 20 still living with mom and dad.... So that line really hit home for me and took it too heart. Don't worry the about the argument it was over once we got home you know those mother/daughter go arounds ;)  On a reflective note I've realized that my taste in music ranges from really happy upbeat music or it's very sad music there was a post going around on Facebook that said;
"When you're happy you listen to the music of a song"
"When you're sad you listen to the lyrics of the song"
It's the most true statement I have seen in a really long time because I always that I was just always the type of listener that would always look for meaning in the words that were being sung but it happens much more on a deeper level when I'm upset because music does have a feeling of being safe for me I know I'm not gonna be judged or told that I'm wrong for feeling whatever I am in that moment. Sometimes music can be my only friend because I don't have to explain myself which is half the time the reason why I don't want to tell anybody anything that's going on with me because I don't their opinions! I honestly think the only thing that keeps my heart beating is my undying love for music and the people that create it ❤️ I know if I didn't have that I wouldn't have made it this far in life...

Love, Tay

The Sound Of Silence

Prompted Writing- Write about staying quiet when you feel like shouting...


I often feel like this when I get upset because I'm the type of person that I immediately crawl into myself. Meaning I'd rather suffer privately behind closed doors then tell somebody about the problem or issue at hand. I've always been very emotional ever since from a young age I think I would pick up on people's moods and feelings especially if they were close to me. Most people think oh well, If you're emotional your good at talking about your feelings HELL NO! I'm so bad at it I think because as I've grown up and had to go through difficult things such as grieving over death, lose of friendships or dealing with arguments with friends, or romantic endeavors that never developed into anything real, and family issues I cared what other people have thought. An example is say not telling my parents about an argument with a friend because once me and said friend worked out the issue whenever they'd come over I didn't want my parents to look at them in a different way because of the issue we had. The easiest way to explain it is not having people I care about not like the other people I care about weather it be friends and family or friends and friends everyone isn't going to mix well I know that now but it took awhile for me to understand that and to be okay with it. There is this one time in particular that makes me think of staying quite when I felt like yelling at the world because I was so upset and distraught. During my junior year I really liked a guy at my school he was a jock and a popular kid and I'd always been a floater meaning I liked to hang out with lots of different groups of kids such as choir, drama, sports, etc. Yet that year I decided I wanted to be more outgoing so I became friends with a few "Popular Girls" that were in my classes and that's how I started speaking with this guy. For being 16 we talked about very serious stuff anything and everything under the sun we got to be friends and soon after that we admitted to hanging feelings for each other so all was great until around early April which is when most girls start thinking about Prom and such we were juniors it was the first time we could go without being asked by an upperclassmen so I was excited to hopefully be waiting to be asked to go with this guy right?! Well, two weeks before prom we were hanging out together at his house and he started to pressure me into doing stuff that I wasn't ready to do or willing to do and he acted like okay I completely understand sort of thing. We both agreed not to go to Prom and just do something together that night we that night I was on Facebook and boom there's pictures of said guy with another girl and my heart burst into little pieces... It hurt so bad because he lied too me so once the school week came along I just held my head up high and acted like nothing happened and damn straight I wasn't ever speaking to him again. That day I found out he took this girl to prom because he knew she would put out for him! WTF!!! anyways the point of telling this story is that I was so hurt on the inside that I only told my best friend "D" at the time  about it because I don't want the questions or having to re-tell the story itself cause it really did shake me to my core I guess you could even call it my 2nd time where something broke my heart. As an adult now I try very hard to speak my feelings to the people I know I can trust and have my back because to hold all of those toxic emotions inside of you isn't good for you're mental health at all.
It's quite the lesson learned I can say that for sure!

Love, Tay

Commotion

Prompt- Write about being overstimulated by a lot of chaos...


I think the first time that I felt and understand what being overstimulated was like was my first time going to Las Vegas. I was eight years old my family decided to go because not only do my parents like too gamble a bit but also because a friend of there's told them that now there is a lot of stuff for kids too do so they thought why not try a new vacation spot (usually we ended up going to Disneyland every summer). Getting over the plane and seeing the brightly light signs and seeing slot machines in a airport was a very old thing to see but very cool at the same time. As we all piled into a taxi too take us to our hotel which was the Luxor because my mom really liked Egyptian culture. Driving along we arrived on The Strip I looked outside the window and saw huge buildings that had different colored signs, banners, and decor I was so intrigued. Once we got to our hotel and went to go check in waiting in the casino lobby and just staring at everything I was amazed there we're so many sounds(slot machines, people chatting, music playing), the amount of people the line to check in had to have forty people in it! We were staying for four days and three nights the whole time I was in this mystic haze because I couldn't believe everything I'd seen we did lots of fun things such as the Aquarium at Mandalay Bay, the HUGE arcades in Excalibur and New York New York where my sister and I ruled every game that was in there also realizing my exceptional game playing at Air Hockey, Walking the cobble stoned like floors in Caesars Palace where my mom and dad took a Gondola boat ride down the river as a man sang opera too them. Halfway through the ride someone is standing on a balcony taking pictures where at the end you can buy as a souvenir to remember the experience and they did it sits proudly on the mantlepiece in our living room whenever I look at it my parents look so happy and so in love it warms my heart.  As the vacation came to an end and we all went back home I knew that I wanted to come back because this place for me was magical and I just wanted to soak up every ounce of excitement this city had to offer. The next time I went was the summer before my freshmen year of high school this was a different type of vacation because it was the first time my sister didn't go back she at that time had her own family so it was just myself, mom, and dad honestly it felt very weird and kinda really sad because I had a tough time with my sister leaving our 4 person unit (Us+our parents) and starting her own so I missed her a lot on this trip but what made me so happy and brought me out of my funk I was in was my parents got me tickets to go see Criss Angel's show Believe because I was a big fan of his I'd watch Mindfreak and search for Youtube videos of him. I also really liked his aesthetic which is that dark/dangerous vibe that thrill of you don't know what he is gonna do so I was pumped to go see him. The show was amazing it was just me and my dad (mom was too chicken to go see him;) haha! It really was magical I had a blast and it's still something my dad and I talk about too this very day. Then I went again to Vegas the summer before my senior year so summer 2013 this time I got to bring my best friend at the time who is "D" I've talked about her a few times before on the blog but I was so excited to bring her along for the crazy ride which is a trip to Vegas! Both of us were sixteen so we will totally looking for adventure and maybe a little danger ;) basically once we got there it was me and "D" went off on our own and my parents went off and did there thing. We met up for Pool Time and Meals then we did a few things all together like going to Pawn Stars which so to say for fans of the show but the store itself is really tiny and so crowded that we waited an hour to even get into the place and for the cherry on top none of the guys from the show were there :( it was a total bust. The best thing about vegas is the night life and boy did "D" and I get to experience it we choose to dress up in these short little dresses/skirts and hills made ourselves look at least 21 when we were really sixteen which got us into some very fun trouble ;) all though what's the saying "What happens in vegas stays in vegas!" ;)
On this trip we actually saw a few celebs one of them being Ryan Gosling and he gave "D" a little up down look which made us giggly school girls stupid us we didn't realize who it was until after we got to wherever we were going yet nothing made us giggle as much as to when we had our picture taken with two of the Knights of the Roundtable at Excalibur.

Knight 1- Nathan with "D" Knight 2- Chris with me :)

My last trip there was to go see Aerosmith with Slash opening for them as my graduation present sadly I tried to set up the trip with "D" but it didn't end up working out because she'd had to pay for her plane ticket as well too I don't think her parents understood why we wanted to go so badly together it was because we bonded over that band so much together and it really became something special to us. I did get to go with my mom which was still very fun but I really do wish me and "D" would have gotten to go together it would have been the trip of a lifetime! I'll be turning 21 soon well in December so hopefully we can make a girls trip together all though my mom will probably want to crash which is just fine because she's basically 21 at heart so it's all good :) 

I love Las Vegas because of the crazy, fun, atmosphere plus I always seem to find the cutest guys there ;) hehe oops 

Love, Tay

Easy Listens- Artists That Are Perfect To Relax Too/ Day 1: Conner Maynard

FYI- I'm gonna start a new series of posts that involve music artists that have voices or songs that are what I call easy listens meaning that they are relaxing too listen too or you could put on their music while doing chores or trying to do stuff in general. I've always been that person who could never work in complete silence I needed some type of noise to keep me focused wether that be music, a tv playing in the background or simply white noise such as fans, people chatting around me. The people that I showcase in these series will have that type of sound so hope you guys enjoy! :)

I love conner's cover of this song so much it's so soft meaning his tone is barely above a whisper but listening to the lyrics is a cry for help for somebody who got wrapped up in the celebrity of being a music artist and finding out there is a real darkness to the industry. The way Conner portrays an almost broken person shows the real raw emotion within the song.

In this video is both Conner and Jack (his brother) together the game was Jack was going to text Conner a title to a song and he has to sing a part of that song over the beat that was playing. It shows what Conner does best which is taking on old R&B hits and spinning them into an acoustic version of the song. It's also fun to see these two play around :)

 With this video I went looking for because it was another one of those songs on the radio that I loved the beat too but had absolutely no idea what the guy was saying and I'm one of those people that first look for lyrics in music rather than instrumentals. My search lead me to this particular video and I fell in love because it's that slow and sexy vibe that I really dig then that beat drops and everything goes crazy!

YES, I know it's a Justin Bieber song which is something that is totally not my jam but the boy got something right with this one song... The mixture of Conners voice with his friends rap towards the end gave the song new life so claps for them! ;)

All I can say is his cover pulled on my heartstrings so hard that I cried through the video... yes I know how sappy that is but sometimes the emotion in music just takes over and you can't help it! this ones always on repeat if I had a bad day it just somehow makes my pain go away. Great Escapism song!

Knowing I Can Be Alone And Be Okay

FYI- Talky Post!


Recently I have just realized I can be alone and still be okay it may be a strange thing too say but it's been a really difficult place to get to in my life. Growing up I always had somebody near me either it being family such as parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins or very close friends also a few special guys along the way so I'd never been fully alone. Until school started in 2014 my friends were starting there first year of college and I didn't know what I wanted too do the furthest I got was graduating high school then didn't think beyond that which trust me I know it was stupid but to have something as a true passion in life that being cooking of course I wanted to go to school for that until about my junior year of high school I don't know what happened it just didn't really matter as much as it once did and honestly after that two weeks of hell I had to get through to walk across that stage I sure as hell didn't want to be sitting in a classroom so soon again I wanted time off. So from the end of summer till the start of March that year I didn't do much at all. During that time I got really depressed because I was so use too having this day to day contact with my best friends that when I was told many a times "I'm so busy" "I'm sorry I just don't have the time" it created this anger instead of me because I was so sick of being pushed away when I truly needed someone by my side. March rolled on by and my mom pushed me to start taking just one class at a community college to get me out of the house and start being more social which is something I needed to do. I took that class and passed an A+ then the summer came and I decided that I'd start fresh in the fall and before I knew it I was taking an almost full class load in both fall and winter terms with the spring term being lighter cause I did so much with the other two terms. Now I love taking classes and of course I'm changing my major too journalism probably something to do with writing because thats why I think I excel at and have been told I'm a good writer. One of my dreams is too take this blog to the next level and to do this full time and go to blogger events because I really do love doing this! Going back to me being comfortable in a college setting it gave me perspective of what my best friends were experiencing and knowing the feeling of being super busy and not having the time to chat or hang out. It made me see what they were going through and understand where they were coming from. Now I can go a week or two without speaking too them but know that if I do call or text they are there. I also have to thank my bestie "S" she has been there for me when my other "Bestie" just wasn't acting the way a bestie should act. "S" picked up the leftover emotional crap I had and helped me sort out my feelings and made me feel like she was always there if I needed her. I'm so thankful for her and our friendship :)

Love, Tay  

Music Love- Guns N Roses

Members From Left To Right- Duff McKagan,Slash,Axl Rose, Steven Alder,
Izzy Stradlin 

I've always have said this band was in my top 3 favorite artists of all time because they fit so well into the classic rock era that I fell so in love with. All though they could be classified within Glam metal, heavy metal, and also an 80's band which often gets a bad rep. Expect that they made kick ass music that still lives on today especially since recently they started to tour as "Guns N Roses" all original
members are touring together again! Expect for Izzy probably for the reason being I've seen interviews they had done in the past he seems a behind the scenes guy instead of a okay I'm gonna show them what I can do type of musician who is often surrendering to lots of drama. Now I can't remember where exactly I first heard them it could have been when I realized we had a channel called "classic VH1" it played rock music, alternative music, and metal music. Everything that the other VH1 channel doesn't play anymore because it's not current. I got hooked watching and learning about all of these different bands. While on a summer break I'd say of 0'9 because my mom was going back and fourth from our house to my grandmothers house because of then recent medical issues so that meant I was home alone most of that time I need to entertain myself and that's how I got into a lot of the rock music I love to this day. "Welcome To The Jungle" was my first introduction to their catalog and it made me crave more it was this new and exciting sound. Axl's voice amazed me especially since he could go from that screeching falsetto to this low primal growl in a matter of seconds. Next is a song called "It's so Easy" there is a real punk element to this song it's like a Romans/Blondie moment the lyrics tell a story of a spoiled rockstar who gets anything and anyone he pleases. I do love the irony because they never complained about their lifestyle of being rich and famous. The lead guitar work that Slash does it's so intricate yet with a very raw sounding vibe I like to say he makes it "Cry" meaning he draws out each and every note he plays to create that longing sound. Then we have Paradise City a wonderful summer anthem the mix of the drum pattern Alder plays mixed with bass and lead guitar is pure genius! A shift in the typo of music is the ballads they made are some of my favorite songs ever made. First being "Sweet Child O'mine" the iconic opening riff fills my ears and veins soaking up the amazing sounds always just calms me down whenever I'm having a tough day. What gets me are the lyrics in which Axl is talking about his girlfriend at the time about finding solace in somebody that no matter what that person can somehow save you. It's very emotional which is something I always find very interesting about Axl and the way he writes. Another favorite part of the song is when Duff sings the "where do we go now" it sounds so cool! Plus when the power note from Axl and Slash's guitar hit at the same time!!!! ;) it does something to my heart every single time! Moving on is a song called "Knocking On Heavens Door" its a cover of a Bob Dylan song. For me this song is a very emotional one because it helped me through my teenage angst years and hard times. I can't tell you guys how many times this song has been playing while I'm bailing my eyes out to the point of where you're crying so hard that you feel like you can't breathe at all that real and very honest emotion is invested into this song it's like if I listen to it enough times I slowly start to calm myself down and realize I will be okay there's really something magical about this one for me I hold this specific song so close to my heart that I'd love to get a tattoo of some of the lyrics they mean that much to me. Lastly is November Rain now this one is so sentimental because it's attached to a memory of a past relationship we rode the same bus and our bus driver would listen to rock stations and one day towards Thanksgiving break it was pouring down rain and I was really upset because for some reason Thanksgiving after when my grandpa died always felt cold like no one wanted to be there and I didn't want to pretend to act like a family so I was telling him all about it as tears fell from my eyes he looked me straight in my eyes pushed my hair away from my face and told me "Everything will be okay you will get through it" and I laid my head on his shoulder and listened to the sound of rain and the song playing which later I found out was November Rain. Every time I hear it now I smile because of him :)

Love, Tay

Favorite Artist- Chris Cornell

I've always loved strong voices and he's is one of those magical sounding ones that it bewilders me by how amazing his voice really is and how it completed in an era the 90's with the newly found genre known as Grunge where the idea was to turn the volume up too 11 on amps and play as loud as you could. He risen too fame was brought by his world record selling band Soundgarden. Personally I know this band to be one of the biggest bands of the genre Grunge along with Pearl Jam, Nirvana, etc. Personally one of my favorites is a song called "Rusty Cage" his tone in this song is tough but a touch softness cause there is an part of his voice that is just velvet it's so smooth that it creates a strange but fun surprise cause it's so unexpected. Next up is the song "Black Hole Sun" it's the most well known track from the band but it's one that is just too good that of course I have to talk about it. It's a ballad which is unusual for their sound so no wonder why everyone loved it. It has a very trippy feel to me the image I get is Alice falling down the rabbit hole all though I also get this vibe that it's about someone who is already so far down the hole but want so bad to get out and for the black clouds to go away and to be able to restore happiness to their life. I find it a very inspiring song because it helped me channel distractive emotions such as sadness, or anger but be able to come out of that dark time to be able to be happy again. (Thank You Chris!) I'm also a fan of his other band Audioslave my favorite track has to be "Cochise" it's such a sexy slow rocking vibe. It will be playing in every underground night club forever because it has that dangerous vibe. Another song that I just adore is 'Hungry Strike" by Temple Of Dog which includes Chris Cornell and Eddie Vender from Pearl Jam god their voices mash so well together it's almost like they just fit together like a missing piece of a puzzle. Now this song is very special too me because for some reason it has this instant calming affect on me it brings me peace when everything seems to be crashing down and I just can't take anymore. I can't count how many times I have cried so hard like completely sobbing and can't catch my breath and somehow this song will come on and I know I will be okay. Lastly is a cover which is "Nothing Compares 2 U" and it blew my mind it's so beautiful and heartbreaking at the some time which I always find it creates the most real and honest music. You guys must check it out!!! <https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuUDRU9-HRk- The link to the video! If one day I have the pleasure of meeting him one of my dreams will have came true because I think his contribution to the music industry made such a huge impact on me :)

Love, Tay

Song Of The Day- Ride by Twenty One Pilots

Left: Josh Dun
Right: Tyler Joseph 

I came across this song by hearing it on the radio usually I don't really listen too top 40 radio much expect for when I'm in the car. So one day I was going somewhere and had 95.5 on while driving and this song came on and it became on of those songs that grew on you after hearing it a couple of times and by the time I realized this was a really popular song because they played it five times in a one hour rotation. I really like it because it's so different to everything that's currently playing and I think radio needs that. Ride is a song that you can't put into a genre whatsoever because their are so many different elements that represents many different sounds from other genre's such as rock (Those drums though;), Rap (The speed that Tyler sings/raps the lyrics at), Reggae (The island like feel the piano gives off). I found that really cool because the idea of genre is losing it's power because so many musicians are creating music that can't really be put into a box to fit in. I also think that of course music that is created by people will have certain things that will remind you of other music or artists/bands but that's because musicians hold their influences so close to their heart because those people are what sparked that light within them that made them want to make music as well. Music is one of those things that often refer back to the generations that came before you and there is a certain kind of respect that is given and shown and I think it's important that people understand that because music wouldn't be the same without: Elvis, The Beatles, and Bob Dylan those heavyweights carried a lot of weight in how music is made and also heard today. All of us have those moments where we hated the music our parents listened too but actually think about it if those people won't as popular in their day who knows if you're favorite artist today would even be making music?

Love, Tay

Song Of The Day- Dancing With Myself cover by CivilTwilight

https://soundcloud.com/civiltwilight

I came across this cover when I was on Twitter. Billy Idol himself tweeted the link of their cover so of course I wanted to check it out. If the man who wrote the song said he liked it then it's a must right! I pressed play and entered this mind-blowing rendition of one of my favorite songs I was so impressed. I'm surprised no one ever thought to slow the song down and turn it into a ballad. If you listen to the lyrics another way of interpreting the words is someone who is really lonely and looks at the world as if it's him against the world.
"So let's sink another drink

'Cause it'll give me time to think
If I had the chance
I'd ask the world to dance
And I'll be dancing with myself."

There is this wonderful gentle vibe as if you're floating on a cloud it's very unique for this particular song. Also it's an aerial sound which brings an era of calming sense to the music with the light piano accompaniment to the singers voice. Probably one of the best covers I have ever heard! Check it out :) 

Love, Tay 

Music Artist Review- Jimi Hendrix A Legend

When I think of Jimi Hendrix the phase "The Man, The Myth, The Legend comes too mind because he truly embodied each stage of the saying. The man being realizing the love he had for music and noticing the different ways he could manipulate the guitar to create a sound that nobody had ever imagined. As for the myth once he gained a following and became a rockstar he developed a mysterious air about him which all rockstars have. Now the legend comes into play because the man was such a force in the 60's as a pop culture icon of the era as well being strong contender in the music industry because he created a sound that was so unique that his music has lived on for forty six years after his untimely death in 1970.


Through my love for all types of rock music I'd hear a Hendrix's song every once in awhile and be like "Oh that's a pretty cool sounding song I like the hazy vibe I get from this" little did I not know that the hazy vibe was what made him become a superstar. Once again while in my music history class he was one of the major talking points in the 60's era the first song my professor played was "All Along On The Watchtower" and it blew my mind and I instantly fell in love with the sheer genius that was Jimi Hendrix. It's that slow, stoner induced hazy guitar playing gave me goosebumps alone. The slides he'd do all up and down the neck of the guitar really put me in a trance. His singing is interesting because it's almost not singing it's more like spoken-word poetry. Before going on to the next song I just wanna say he was also one of the first guitar players to play left handed which is very cool especially sense I'm also a lefty as well. Next up on the fave tracks list goes to "Purple Haze" there is just an effortless cool to this song it's one of those songs that I love playing when getting ready I throw one of my many leather jackets and feel like a sexy powerful women :) I also love that he let his guitar work speak for itself by doing like an 8 minute solo on a song it showed the magic he brought. The way he'd play with the strings to make loads of distortion which is one of my favorite things in a guitar player it shows they aren't scared to try something different! Lastly my third favorite track is "Voodoo Child" its pure badass it reminds me of a really dark and twisted version of Alice and Wonderland cause it transport you into another world that I'd imagine is a dimly lighted club filled with a haze of smoke circling around you. Smells of dark whiskey and bourbon floating in the air as you arrive to the front of the stage to witness the great Jimi jamming out to this very song. Yes I know it's very dream-like ;) probably because I'd would have killed to see him live such a sad thing that he left us so early on in his career but thankfully his music and his name still live on today and is an influence on people's minds and their taste in music.

Love, Tay

Album Review-Hot Rocks by The Rolling Stones

 The Rolling Stones are one of the biggest names in rock n roll also one of the greatest selling artists of all time. Funny thing is for some reason I didn't like their music until recently. I've always been a music listener that wanted to understand the lyrics behind the song itself with rolling stone songs I think it takes a certain age to be able to get their music and mine happened to be 20 years old the age I am currently. It's also a big deal that all these guys are in there 70's but still touring with the original line up of course without Brian Jones who passed away in 1969. Within this album there are so many amazing songs but my top five would include
1. You Can't Always Get What You Want- 1969 I I love this track because it's acoustic it shows the real musicianship of the guys playing their instruments and Mick's voice lightly floating over it. I always imagine hearing this song when it's pouring rain outside something very homey and comforting about this too me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EM_p1Az05Jo < best performance

2. Brown Sugar- 1971
This track is classic stones because it's filled with attitude and a pinch of filth which is the perfect brew for a good rock song. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3B0Y3LUqr1Q < great live performance!

3. Gimme Shelter- 1970
As for this track it's the background vocals that I love so much that powerful soul/R&B vibe. It slowly began as a signature sound for there band therefore many new up and coming bands after them also wanted black backing vocals for their recordings/live shows. Something flows about having the soulful sound mixing with Mick's vocals and Keith's blues guitar playing it creates magic. The lyrics are also very dark because of talking about murder and rape it's almost acts as a PSA because they speak about very real and raw issues that the world faces each and every day. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPJXEMKtTLE < Wonderful live performance!
                                                                                   4. Honky Tonk Woman- 1969
                                                                                       The thought of The Rolling Stones doing country would make any rock n roll fan laugh themselves sick but something worked in their favor because it's one of the best songs they have ever created. It's that southern rock feel before the genre was even created but then also a surprise because they are British so it kept fans always guessing! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=In0vatNH-k8< I like this video because it's one of those amazing live concert DVD's that people still watch to this very day it also shows how much both men and women liked the band it's great music history :)
                                                                                 5. Ruby Tuesday- 1967
                                                                                      Of course this isn't one of their classic hits but it's one of mine for a very special reason and it always makes me smile. The first time I heard this was back in October of this year while I was seeing this guy let's call him "A" he was unique because he was as into music as I am he was even a musician he played guitar and bass and even sang a little bit but only to me which was the sweetest thing I'd ever heard up to that moment. He would sing this song just to make me laugh whenever I'd walk into class. Sadly nothing came out of us hanging out together but now whenever I hear this song I think of how much fun I had with him. I think that's one of the best things about sharing music that you love with somebody because no matter how that relationship ended you always have a beautiful memory of the time you two spent together. :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvp6gseKJS8 < Something so broadway about this particular performance of the song.

Song Of The Day- (Oh) Pretty Women/ Van Halen version!

If someone asked me what decade is most of the music I listen too from I'd have to say 80's because I love this party vibe that you get from many of the popular bands of the 80's. Now yes I know Van Halen started in 1974 but they became very big in the 80's after being introduced to this amazing band by one of my best friends who I will call "D" I'd come over in the summer to pick her up to go some where and I would always hear a Van Halen song playing in the background. Of course I got curious and started doing some research and soon I realized that "Pretty Women" is my all time favorite song by them. The feel is just so summer like like a bunch of girls who are super good friends walking around just hanging out in the sunshine it's just a feel good kind of track. Within the track David Lee Roth's voice is unique because when he sings his voice has dips and valley's as from it's running up and down a hill plus the fact that he didn't use falsetto in time where guys were covered in make up and spandex trying to hit unimaginable high notes they totally brought something different to the music game. Funny enough the first thing to draw me in was the drumming patterns that Alex Halen created instead of just hearing huge ear shuddering drums it was a calculated pattern he made for every song. Of course being drawn to guitarists I think Eddie Van Halen is one of the very best out there the things he could do always amazed me the speed that man could play at watching his fingers work magic on those strings is a level that tons of musicians have to work towards too. Then Michael Anthony's bass playing is out of this world often in 80's bands the only things you'd hear is Drums, Guitar, and The singer but he really worked hard for his work to be heard and appreciated. It's crazy to think at the amount of headway the made into the music biz from 78' to 84' they sure did kill it back in the day. Totally wish I could have seen them in their prime because now you can see they just don't want to be on stage together that's really sad for those die-hard fans but maybe it's better for them to just retire and bask in the good old day's memories.  

Song Of The Day- Five To One

< Link to the song

As a lover of most rock music I'd always hear about the doors and how much of an influence their made on music in such a short amount on time till the untimely passing of lead singer Jim Morrison. My first taste of their music was in a class that I took at my college called Music Appreciate. The professor was this really cool guy who had a wicked taste in music and also gave a great history on the music itself it's one of those classes I'll always remember. So one day we started working on the Acid Rock genre and my professor asked who was the lead singer of the doors? I raised my hand and said "Jim Morrison" now in 2015 not many kids my age know who he was but I did and he was impressed! The first song he played was Five To One and I fell under Jim's spell ;) There was something so primal about his voice the way he growled, he moaned, his stage prescience.  


There is this hazy, drunk, out of you're mind feeling to their music which I also think is something to reflect that era the 60's or the environment of being an musician. It's a wonderful band to use as an escape because the lyrics really make you think that's a sign of a real artist if their music makes you think. What fun is it if an artist explains what every song really means? Everyone who listens to it makes their own story and that's what they did.

The 1975- Falling For You

This song for me has a lot of meaning because the band the 1975 has helped me through very tough and emotional times in my life. Mostly last summer because it was the first summer I couldn't spend with friends and that shook me to the core because I realized I often depended on my friends for happiness because don't get me wrong I love my family I'm lucky to have them but sometimes it's just so much easier to talk to a friend than a family member and know that the convo you just had will only be between you and that friend. Family tends to get other family involved when most of the time it doesn't need that. It was really hard because I had so much to say to my friends even just the mindless chatter I missed so much I felt very alone and honestly not wanted anymore. It was a mixture of getting left-behind because my closet friends went to actually Uni's and I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life because for so long my thought was "Just Get Through High school!" and once I did it's like everything just stopped and I was confused and scared so it was a critical point in my life where I could have really needed a support system. After both of my parents encouraged me to enroll in a community college to just get started and be back into the social system of taking classes I began to stop depending on my friends less because I not only matured but also understand not having the time to catch up with each other because I had tons of homework or projects to get done. Although I still made the effort and time to be there for my friends if they did need me because I know how lonely it feels when nobody seems to have the time for you. All I ask is for my friends to make the effort make me feel wanted and that our friendship has value.

The picture above is a lyric from the song itself and I just wanted to say I relate to it so much because

the number of times I have been friends with a guy then I develop feelings for them and it always 

seems like I'm never good enough to be the "Girlfriend" it sucks because it's made me sad cause I now think what is wrong with me that I can't make the transition from friend too girlfriend? 

UGH< how I feel towards that! lol